week 5.

Blast! Prac today was a technique training class--isolations and body waves/rolls. :D a bit of groove too, i.e. downbeat, upbeat, rocking and jacking. (<3s jacking)

i felt so happy and relaxed doing the choreo, because it's simply a very laxing choreo. xD
there are hits and hard beats but everything is generally very relaxed and groovy.
AND THERE WAS SO MUCH JACKING. <3<3<3 sweet.

aside from today, i've been sleeping around 4-5am every night, each night doing different things.
on one night, i was distracted on the computer.
another night i was finalising dance and Talentime stuff.
on yet another night, Eesha and i camped in Rasul's room watching dope choreos on youtube. xD (youtube gang!)
and of course. who can forget the night we stayed up to accompany Eesha and watch her finish a 1 litre carton of orange juice because she dropped the cap on the floor.

hall life is getting better. :)

i'm getting to know people better, and i'm starting to get used to the whole independent-ness of uni-life.
i realised that all this while, i've been exceedingly sheltered, i've been indecisive, i've always been relying on others to make decisions for me.

then all of a sudden, i'm thrown into an environment that requires me to sometimes make swift independent decisions in order to lead people well. i can't always rely on someone else to start the ball rolling.
sometimes i've got to be the proactive one.
sometimes i've got to be the one that decides.

It's kinda pressurizing sometimes, to make a decision that you know will directly impact a lot of people, many of whom mean quite a lot to you.
but someone's got to do it.
and someone's got to answer for it when they make the wrong decision.

we can't always remain neutral and avoid blame that way.
sometimes we'll be hated for doing something we love or believe in,
because sometimes people can't see why we do certain things
or why we believe in certain things. or people, for that matter.

haha, i sound as if i'm trying to be mature, but i've still got so much more to learn. :)
especially when it comes to dance.

yes, seeing certain people freestyle is thoroughly damaging to my ego. but then again, killing one's ego is a good way to remind oneself that we've still got a long way to go. in terms of freestyle, i run out of moves after a couple of eighths. honestly, what kind of freestyle is that, man. -__-
i'm not as good a dancer as i want to be yet,
i've still got so much more to improve on,
so this is definitely not the time to take it easy or be complacent.
i don't want to let down the people who have so much faith in me,
who are always encouraging me,
who have never stopped believing in me, even when i used to be whack. whacker.

i've learnt my place, where i stand, and what it means to be humble.
i've learnt that many things are out of my league, and are currently inaccessible to me.
i have learnt not to take things for granted.

and i have also learnt to be happy, and to continue having faith no matter what happens. :)

God is good! all the time!

on a side note, it's my birthday today. :)