baking!

i'm feeling much better now, maybe cuz i've just spent the whole day (having fun) with the 75-ers! we totally ROCCKKK. XD

today we had our personal grooming core module, which was alright. it was somehow made funny, thanks to people like doudou, scott etc. the stuff we learnt was pretty cool, too X)

then after that, we hung around the class bench for awhile, and decided to go mad and do fac dance there and then! XP it was really fun and refreshing to dance again. i hadn't danced since thursday! X)

spent the rest of the day baking, be it cookies, or brownies, with the 75-ers. it was really fun! at first, it was just jane, jia nan, chang jie, veron, wen yan, nandhu and guan jie. and already we were making a lot of noise. XD chang jie was (pretending/acting and) making his move on my brother, my brother's married tuition teacher and jane. (poor jane!!!! XD)

after that jolyn, carol, doudou, chiki, monkey, cen, and scott joined us, so suddenly the house was swarming with 75-ers!! wah i got a shock when i saw so many people getting off the bus at the bus stop. LUCKILY doudou and chiki retreated upstairs to where the playstation was, so my parents didn't get to see the vulgar side of my friends. XD haha!

we went for dinner after that and jane and i spent dinner talking to jianan and chang jie. it was a great way of cheering me up after yesterday's disappointment. :)

i'm feeling guilty, because i know i did better than some people. yet i was still so upset and disappointed with my results. but the problem is that i had a personal goal for myself. and when i failed to achieved that personal goal, i was deeply saddened. it's not that i think 7 points is a lousy score. in fact i thank the Lord that i didn't get any higher (somehow it sounds weird to say this of grades. XD). it's just that it's disappointing that instead of improving from the prelims, i deproved. and this deprovement affected my entire L1R5.

it's hard to talk to someone about it, cuz the results aren't THAT bad. talking about will only hurt other people's feelings.

i should just be thankful to the Lord and move on, shldn't i? but there have been so many things that happened that i just can't forget. i can't get over them. though i know thinking about them and trying to find ways to resolve them isn't going to help much, i'm still doing it. because my mind can't work its way around them.

angel and mortal presents.... i haven't gotten them yet. XP

thanks, guys (i mean, girls XP) for being by side to comfort me. i knew i could always count on you!! none of my HC friends (except for one) messaged me because they were scared. someone passed the news that i was upset to all of them, and they all didn't want to talk to me because of that. X( sorry for making you worry, guys... but i knew i could count on you SC buddies! x) so thank you vic, nic, kim, min, YY, deb, cai ling, ying, rox, larry, eileen, eunice, chuan, mian, fifi, etc etc. i owe you guys one. X) love you guys always!!!

you're irreplaceable...