my mind is kinda in a blank right now.

Cinderella Revamped the musical is over.
and i can't seem to get over the fact that:
we won't be meeting at Sembawang every week to camp till night practising dance steps,
we won't be randomly hanging out at KFC disturbing every around us with our loud uncouth behaviour,
we won't be sleeping early in the supercold dance studio, waiting for ppl to come for pracs,
we won't be giving each other random hugs upon seeing each other, behaving as if we haven't seen each other for weeks though we probably just saw each other a day ago,
we won't be gathering together much anymore.
and that saddens me.

like my mugging clique (Sali, Tacky, Wil, Suu, Wilfred, Terrance, Casey), i feel at home with these people. i don't have to watch what i do or say to have fun and be loved by these people. no matter what we're doing, we ALWAYS end up having fun. and we all feel comfortable, because we're all there to watch each others' back. God's presence was always with us, and never left us, and His spirit kept us strong and bonded.

i'll really miss those times. my head's still in a blur right now, and my mum is not helping. she's trying to get me to decide on whether i should go to US to study this year. i...really don't know. i wanted it bad last time, because i felt there was nothing for me to study here, and i wanted the exposure in terms of Art and Dance. but i finally found a course in Singapore that's exactly what i want to study! and i don't know if it's really worth giving up everything i already have here for a new life overseas. i was so hell-bent on going to US, but i feel my resolution has been broken. just like that, just so easily, it's been crushed, and broken. and i'm not so sure what i want anymore. i don't know what's more important for me anymore, i don't know what will make me happier, i don't know what will please God more. i just don't know anything anymore.



Everything, everything is still a blur...
-Blur by Britney Spears