initially, i was apathetic about results. i can't change them no matter how much i worried, so i didn't see the point in bothering to panic about today. hence, i didn't.

when i got back results, the first feeling i experienced was shock. then subtle disappointment. then numbness and apathy once more.

after talking to the gang, i felt cheered up. i was happy again.

then my mum said some really mean insults and nasty things to me. i was angry, upset, and disappointed all over again.

and now, once again, after being cheered up again by my friends, and put down once more by my mother, i am numbed. :/

i don't want to think about it anymore. i want to be happy with my results, to believe it's all part of some big awesome plan of God's, that i can't comprehend at this stage in time.

i want to not think about it anymore.

i'm not sad, or angry, or upset anymore. i just want to finish choreo-ing Hey Wannabes. XD

CHIONG.