missing.

i gave this entry the name 'missing'. it's an intended pun. :)


you know, i never realised how much i missed sali, tacky and wil until they recently disappeared from my life.

all this while, we were always studying together, it was second nature to just casually elbow/yell to them to disturb and annoy them, because they were always right beside me. yeah, terrance, bro and glenn were there sometimes, but these 3 were really with me almost every single day before the A levels.


i still remember sali sharing her yummy dried cranberries with me, and wilson&tacky's joint efforts to suan me and make fun of me and scam me.... and somehow, i find that, i really need that now. i need to talk to them, i need to see them... i'm so dependent on them for support, for love, for advice, that when they're suddenly gone from my life, i feel so...alone.


i'm glad for girlfriends like lex, bettina and hanzhi. lex is always so inspiring and encouraging, she's always giving me confidence, reassuring my faith, protecting me, helping me. hanzhi's always there to give me hugs and support, and bettina's always good company, hugs, love and can always cheer me up. seriously, without these people that i've been blessed with, i doubt i'll be able to push myself through this challenging time and still come out smiling.


thank God for them.


i also miss jiayi, jiayuan, jiaying, jiayee, sharon, huitian, meisiew and gang a lot. jiayi's still in china now, i think. i can't wait to see them again. i still have their presents.


on a side note, it's ironic and sad how sometimes the friends you thought you were closest to, can actually be the ones who are causing you the most stress, grief, depression, angst, hurt, loss of confidence and pain.










but i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all...


-pain by 3 days grace.