no need for expectations.

i guess i am glad because i have come to the realisation that i just enjoy making people happy.

whether you realise all these things i do for you or not is secondary.
what matters is that you're happy for that split moment when i give things of myself to you.

be it gifts, my time, my choreography, my heart, my love.

it doesn't matter if you remember them
or appreciate them
or reciprocate them.
all that truly is secondary.

i think the reason i was unhappy was because i expected something in return, when in fact, it was impossible for there to have been any.

i expected something out of nothing.

i'm still getting used to this concept of giving unconditionally, unconditional acceptance, unconditional love... it's tough and it's painful at times, but i know this is the kind of love He wants me to have for His people.

the people i love.

though it would be nice to be appreciated, and even nicer to have reciprocation, i guess it's not something i should get used to expecting. :)

i want people to be happy :) that is all.

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on a side note, i really enjoyed teaching tech class at Sheares again today :)
the dancers who came are all amazingly enthusiastic, and i'm touched they chose to come even in the midst of project deadlines and exams...

dance is truly God's gift to me. it really makes sense in every way, and makes so much hell so much more bearable. it's really His way of giving me something to love life for.

thank you. :)

even if i don't get that happy ending
i will always be thankful :)