horrible day.

today was a terrible day.

first thing that happened was that i overslept this morning. it's really not in my nature to oversleep, but i suspect it has to due with the stomach ache i had last night as i was going to bed... i remember turning off one of the 2 alarms i set this morning, but i have NO IDEA what happened to the other one.

the next thing i knew, teo was calling me on the phone, at 9.55AM, asking me where i was.

vetting was supposed to start at 10AM.

i FREAKED, ran to get myself ready, jumped into my costume and reached CFA @ 10.20AM.

i forgot steps for BOTH my items, both during times when i was right in front. it was so so nerve wrecking. i just felt so so disappointed with myself. the fact that i let my choreographers down, my item people down, since i'm an item IC... an item IC is supposed to be there earlier than the rest, getting their item people all hyped up, taking attendance, helping people with costumes...
and what did i do? i overslept and got my fat ass there late.
what a lousy item IC i am...

then after vetting was over, i was prepared to rush over to Eusoff for our Dance Production piecing. each piecing has 2 runs, one in the morning and one in the afternoon. obviously i missed the morning one because of our vetting, so i felt i really had to go for the afternoon one, especially since i missed the first piecing ENTIRELY. (due to Impresario Semi-finals)

and then i realised i had EMCC rehearsal from 1-3pm. DP piecing 2nd run was from 1-4pm.

this time i really felt that i had let Rasul, my fellow choreographer, down. he's been covering for me all these weeks that i've been late for pracs due to EMCC, Impresario practice, and he's been tanking a lot of things like choreography, blocking, formations... i just feel that i'm not being fair to him at all.
i finished EMCC prac @ 3.10pm and got to Eusoff by 3.20pm.

...just in time to see the last item.

i missed BOTH my item runs. one which i choreographed, and one which i'm dancing for.
i've never seen my dancers do a full run during piecing before AT ALL.
i've never done a full run during piecing at all either.
i effectively missed BOTH my first piecings entirely.

then our Dance Directors said that the last time for costume alterations by wardrobe is tomorrow (Sunday) night. 10pm-12am. during which i will not be in hall, since i'm out of hall on Sundays and only return on Monday. in other words, i'm just going to have to take my costumes as they are.
there has only been 1 costumes fitting. during which my costumes did NOT fit me at all. i can't dance without ripping the shirt/pants apart into shreds. that's when they sent it back for 1st altering.

i couldn't make it for any of the previous alterations due to EMCC pracs + competition discussion stuff + DU pracs and now i'm probably going to have a costume that doesn't fit for the last piecing. and it's all my fault...

i just hope i don't rip anything during the last piecing. seriously.

then i had to rush back to Serangoon from Eusoff for my dad's 50th birthday dinner, meaning that i was missing Karen's prac, despite being her IC. if it wasn't such a big thing, if my dad wasn't turning half a century old today, i would've gone for Karen's... but yeah. i missed Karen's, and i think people probably think even less of me now, especially after all of today's screw ups.

and i was 10 minutes late to meet my family, because i had to rush from piecing and de-brief. arghhhhh family ALMOST kicked up a fuss but thankfully assumed i was late because i dilly dallied and not because i was doing hall stuff/dancing (which would have REALLY pissed my mum off).

i guess the only nice thing that happened today was all the encouragements i got from my dear friends, to stay strong, to keep moving forward, to keep looking up... and of course how happy my dad was to see that i could make it for his birthday.



...i think that maybe, just maybe, these things alone make all the shit today sorta worth it. :)