this first sentence makes me sound somewhat geek-ish and un-happening. nevertheless, it is all part of my attempt to describe the process of Clubbing in a most objective and informative way, without any sense of biasedness, or negativity against this rather Happening And Popular (which i shall refer to as HAP for convenience's sake) concept/activity.
to summarize it all, if not for my friends, i would have been utterly bored to my sorriest tears.
to give clubbing some credit, i found the music last night great. the mixing was near flawless and the DJ's knew how to choose the right tunes to go back-to-back with each other.
but honestly, i find it really too loud. i know this sounds lame and i know our generation's youngsters find blasting music, be it in the car, on headphones, or in clubs, fun and great and cool, but i can only agree with that to a certain extent. :P
see, blasting music in Saira's car, now THAT was fun! that was a good way to unwind, to chill with my gal pals.
but blasting music so damn freaking loud, that we have to shout directly into people's ears in order for them to hear what we're desperately trying to tell them, i think that's a bit much. :/
maybe this is a personal thing, because being a dancer and a music-lover, my hearing is very precious to me. every time i leave the club area to accompany a friend to the toilet, i can hear this ringing sound in my ears. and it scares me silly, because i don't want my hearing to be affected at all.
I DON'T WANT TO GO DEAF.
so yes, according to a sign outside Butter that says, "If it's too loud, you're too old!", i am indeed too damn frickin bone-breaking cancer-ridden old.
another thing i was uncomfortable with besides the eardrum-murdering music was the fact that just because i'm a dancer, people expect me to go wild and DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY WHOOHOO START THE CONGO LINE etc etc. :/ i am so so glad my fellow dancer pal Weijie could totally empathize with me on this, that not all dancers feel totally at home in clubs.
note:
1) my first time to a club--major culture shock.
2) inappropriate attire. in halter top with scarf and holding somewhat hard-to-carry pouch.
3) NO FRICKIN SPACE DAMMIT
Weijie did the smart thing and left super early, at around 1am. xD
yeah that's basically why i didn't enjoy myself as much as people say i should have. :/ i realised that i'm more a homey person. my idea of a fun night would be to spend the night somewhere cosy, like a friend's house, or a nice small eatery. not exactly a club with blaring coloured nights and deafening music and people crammed so close to one another that there's hardly any bloody space to move, dammit.
oh this might be sudden, but i also witnessed people making out for the first time. the only time i usually see this is on tv or in movies. this made me realise one very important thing:
i would GREATLY PREFER to make out somewhere no one else can see me. ESPECIALLY people that i know.
...i don't want to become a public spectacle. x(
(or a public nuisance for that matter)
so, all in all, not a very enjoyable night. :/ i guess my expectations were a little too high and blown up. oh well. it was an eye opening experience. and i'm also very thankful to anne, vivian, eesha, sarah, saira, marcus, shihao, ewen, andrew, thanu, and yuanloong for trying to make me feel less awkward. :) <3!
urgh. i hope i don't have to do that all over again any time soon. @_____@
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HAP Clubbing aside, i haven't been in the best of moods lately. still feeling the pinch of adjusting to a new environment full of people who don't know me very well and vice versa. i'm comforting myself with the thought of pending open classes and welcome tea at Blast! this coming week :D hopefully i'll meet people that i'll get to know on a deeper level so that i won't feel so lonely and alienated...
i love the freedom i'm having in uni, i love hall life, i love many of the new friends i've made, but it saddens me that i still feel a bit out of place. i know i'm being impatient, i know these "settling-in/fitting-in" things take about one semester. i should just patiently wait and not try too hard. yes i think sometimes i try too hard.
music will take my mind off this. so i shall play my piano in a bit.
dance will ease my troubled mind, so i will help Betty with her item next week.
and that, my friends, is that.
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True friendship is one in which just sitting in comfortable silence feels like time well spent.
how long has it been since i've felt that...?
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