sentosa!

OMG i am so glad we still carried on with the sentosa outing even though today wasn't exactly a free day for me! XD thanks guys for organising it. you guys are the best!

couldn't get dunked because of my mum, but got sprayed with plenty of sand, especially courtesy of casey. XD did a lot of stupid things with the sand, the seawater, (and on the guys' part) a bit of alcohol. it's so super expensive, can't understand why people choose to spend so much on it. bah.

i guess it was somewhat worth it to see everyone get so high. :D after all, we seldom have so much fun! then again. alcohol is bad for you. *nods vigorously*

poor audrey got dunked 3 times! and nic got dunked twice! and i somehow escaped it. mostly because my mum doesn't allow me to get wet. and being the stupidly obedient girl i am, i listen to her.

casey is really good at riding bikes. both nic and i didn't crash at all when he rode in front on the 2-seater. super zai. i must learn to ride like that, man!

so much chasing and running around, burying people in the sand, throwing sand, doing silly things, it somehow makes you wish it was the holidays again... x(

it was really hard leaving the place after having so much fun. sometimes, a part of me just wants freedom at whatever the cost, but the more practical side of me knows it's not feasible. BUT BUT i mean sometimes it's just nice to know you're at least allowed to get a little wet, stay out a little later with good friends that you trust with your life, etc. sometimes i just get so sick.

today was a nice day to de-stress. but somehow, i'm still pretty stressed. and pressurised. also dunno why. not like there's a lot to do or whatever. and after something happened after we went hypering on the beach, i'm pressurised, demoralised, dejected and sorely disappointed with myself.

eeek i know i shouldn't be emo! i should be happy! but but. ><

i thought i'd have your support. i'm sorry i shouldn't have assumed that i would. but i really didn't expect to be countered and cornered and whatnot by you, of all people, because i really really look up to you A LOT.

please please just trust us. we know what we're doing. i know you can't trust me, because i'm not capable enough, but you can trust us.

you have no idea how much it hurts to know that your own friend question your abilities, especially when you yourself already aren't sure if you can handle what you're going through. please, don't add any more to the pressure. i'm already squished beneath it.

i guess i'm quite silly to want my friends to lend me their support most of the time. i mean, they can't always be there for you.... or can they? it's not right to have such high expectations. still...

school's tmr! oh man i dunno if i can still study after all that playing. XD