honestly...

honestly...
sometimes i hate being dead frank.
you know why?
because sometimes, some things are not worth saying.
some things that hurt people,
some things that demoralise them,
hurt them, cut them down when they don't need it.

when people need to be encouraged, when people's morale need raising, sometimes, it's good to keep one's tongue in cheek for the moment.

when the right moment comes, yes you can let them know the truth.

i mean, so what if it's the truth? must they know it NOW? must they effing get demoralised when they need encouragement? why can't you effing be sensitive, spare a thought for their feelings, and tell them ANOTHER EFFING TIME? must it be NOW NOW NOW NAO SAY WITHOUT THINKING BECAUSE I JUST LIKE BEING FRANK AND THAT'S HOW I AM SO DON'T TRY TO CHANGE ME EVEN THOUGH IT WILL MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON CUZ I DON'T WANNA BE A BETTER PERSON SINCE I'M HAPPY BEING MY ASSHOLEY SELF.

okay if that's what you want, you can stay an asshole. -__-

okay so you wanted me to tell it straight to your face. SO I DID. I HOPE YOU ARE EFFING HAPPY NOW LALALA~

i still have hope in the musical, and i really love the people in it. and i'm gonna give it my all. only 22 days and i'm not gonna give up now.

oh Lord give me and my dear friends the strength and courage to carry on.
we really need it.
the next few weeks are going to be...rather trying. :x