luckiest girl in the world.

i got home today, and spent a long time reflecting on the day's events. the niao-ing, the laughter, the funtime, the wonderful company, the cake, the gifts, and all the lovelovelove that came from all my darling, wonderful, closest friends.

and i thought to myself,
"what on earth did i do to deserve such an awesome and AMAZING batch of friends?"

my birthdays always make me feel so blessed, like i'm the luckiest girl on earth. :)

i read through nic's red book, and the starry card the gals gave me, and i dunno why, i just kept crying and crying and smiling to myself. x) and then crying again.
i'm still tearing now even as i'm typing this.

and then i received an sms from a close classmate friend, wishing me well because she was worried for me.

i read the card and book again, and cried like crap all over again, even at things that were meant to be funny, like wilson's zanpakutou or tackkian's vaizard/arrancar mask. i just felt...so...
blessed.

it's a feeling like,
"i don't deserve this,
i don't deserve to be so happy,
i don't deserve these wonderful gifts,
i don't deserve these darling, awesome, fantastic, amazing, loving friends."

...and yet,
i am this happy,
i have these wonderful gifts,
and i have these darling, awesome, fantastic, amazing and loving friends.

i just...feel so blessed.
to me,
because of these IMBAAAAAAAAA friends that i have,
i really feel like i'm the luckiest girl in the world. :)




Thank you, Lord. For everything. x)