dilemma.

i am trying my best to put on good behaviour so i'll be able to go for REUNION on saturday! ^o^

but i'm sad, cuz nic and bong won't be going. :(((

i hope it doesnt end up like everyone just watching a movie, no talking, no playing games, no DANCING. D:
haii i'm sure it won't lah. :) must have faith in the MADders!

i've been so distracted these few days. rarr. really need to seriously mug. i keep falling asleep on the table at home. :x why. am. i. so.NUA?!

i'm still confused about what course to take in uni. sometimes i wonder why i have to be so different from people in hwachong. why can't i have a passion for medicine? or law? or business? something that hwachong people are known for and good at.

why do i have to be different?

dont get me wrong. i am thankful for God making me who i am, and who i've grown to become. :) it's just that sometimes i can't help but imagine how much simpler my life would be if i was okay with studying something my mum wants me to study.

i'm currently considering:
liberal arts
marketting
business
product design
graphic design

initially the last 2 were my top choices. i wanted a double degree in them if i could get admitted into a uni that offers them. but due to certain parental objections, i'm not so sure if i can even apply for them anymore. :(

more and more of my friends are being swayed and swapping over to aiming for medicine. friends that are 100 times better in art than me have changed their minds and decided to be more practical by choosing to study medicine instead.
will i be like that too?
something tells me i won't. i'm a stubborn idiot. i was so determined on design, until my mum strongly objected. how can i go against my parents? they're my parents, for goodness' sake. i can't rebel against them...

haha monkey and i were just fantasizing about how it would be so ultra super duper COOL if we could study whatever we wanted. i told her,"but that would mean i probably won't be studying any of the subjects i'm studying now. except GP, maybe."
i said my subject combi would probably be GAMD.
GP
Art
Music
Dance. :)



i am an impractical, selfish, moronic little girl. :x