ARRRRGGGHHHH.

i'm not in secondary school anymore--i'm in J1 now! is it so hard to tell or realise?

why don't you understand how much this means to me? or how hard everyone is working to make this a success? or how everyone's parents understand and are even supportive of them?

at every practice, people are working hard and practising over and over again till pretty late. and i'm the one that has to leave early. not because i have anything on, but only because YOU want me home (not anywhere special. just HOME.) earlier so that i won't fall asleep all over the house and annoy YOU. YOU make me make YOU pick me up and YOU don't let me go home on my own at a later time. and YOU want me to show my utmost gratitude to YOU for helping me with something i didn't want help with in the first place. i appreciate it, no doubt. but i just can't bring myself to be a hypocrite and thank YOU.

just in case you're unaware, i know you love me. i love you too. but i'm getting the feeling that if you continue loving me like this, i'm going to suffocate before i've got a chance to love you back fully.

please understand. i'm not asking for your support. i'm only asking for your acceptance.

i'm in J1 now. have you noticed yet?