pretty ugly.

went to watch huangcheng with veron, jane, changjie, adriano, kelvin, doudou, carol, suat AND VICTORIA. XP we caught the afternoon show. after that, veron, changjie, adriano, kelvin and jolyn (who we met at orchard library) went to have dinner and talk. (note the lack of the name victoria. XD) ^-^ it was really funny. it was also especially sweet of jolyn to sit and wait and talk with me till my bus came. THANKS JOLYN. X)

victoria has become so girly now! XD she dresses so differently and puts on make up! gosh. what a transformation! XD still not very used to it, though.... kinda miss the old vic. X)

anyway. that's not the main point of this entry. XP those who went on our little excursion all know how much fun we had, so it's hard to translate all that into words. ^-^

ugly betty's a really cool show. but that show, together with several other things that happened today, made me ponder about the whole concept of looks. sure, we're getting a lot of programs now on how looks aren't everything, there's always inner beauty even in things outwardly ugly yada yada yada. but the thing is: is anyone listening to what these programs are trying to say?

not for most of the world, they aren't.

the real truth is that, in this material world, to many people, looks are still number 1. it's sad, but true. will we end up picking our bfs/gfs solely based on their looks? some of us won't (good for them) but some of us might. which is what worries me.

the world we live in is just so shallow and superficial that i'm ashamed to say that i live in it.

i'm just glad to see that looks don't always = popularity or likeability. it's good to see people trying to get to know others better before making the decision on whether to base an entire evaluation of character on looks alone. come to think of it, our character often has little to do with our looks. then why do people place so much emphasis on looks? i admit i do. and i'm not proud of it. but if you ask me why do i do it? the answer is, i don't know. i just do. and so do many other people out there, who are just waiting for the chance to show the people they like how gorgeous they can really dress themselves up to be. they often forget to prune their personalities which were originally made gorgeous in God's eyes already.

looks are like an outer shell that sometimes mask and hide away our true personality. then why do we spend so much time tending to them and helping them cover up our personality when what we need to do is to place more emphasis on what's inside? cliched it may sound, but it's a simple fact none of us can understand. why is it so hard for us to understand...?

it may seem like another senseless rant, but i'm glad i managed to get it all out. X) i wanted to make it more personal and relevant to my own life, but i know some people would complain that i'm matyring. (hope that's how you spell it. XP)

And everytime you look my way
I wish that I had the guts to say...
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to dance,
Make me want to sing
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you <3