the send off.

i sent my cousin off to the airport tonight. she's going to america to study and i'll probably only get to see her in august. which isn't too bad. i mean, we'll probably be so busy that we wouldn't really get to see each other much even if she didn't fly off to some foreign country.

yet, i couldn't help but feel that i didn't appreciate her as much as i could have. there were so many times i could be nicer to her, so many more times i could bring her joy, and yet, i failed to do that. i couldn't help but keep thinking,

"this shouldn't be the way. she's far too young. she's not ready."

she's the cousin i've been closest to. so it's hard not to miss her. it's the same feeling i get when i think of all of us leaving for our separate JCs/polys. it's such a cliched feeling. everyone feels it, but gives the excuse that it's a way of life. everything has to come to an end.

but things don't always have to end this way. i'm sure there's a way for all of us to remain happy! :) we don't always have to submit to separation! :D

mei keen, i will pray for your safety. i will pray that God will keep you close to Him. and i also pray that He will keep you happy always. i will miss you, dear cousin. but i know that we'll always be able to keep in touch. (the internet ROCKS.) so, till we meet again, adios!

i don't know why i typed this here. she doesn't even know my blog address. XD